How are you holding up, hanging in there?
I must admit that last week was quite the challenging ride for me, and I will share more about that with you shortly.
It really got me thinking about the challenges, or battles that we are all facing, in varying degrees as we progress and push and attempt to get a handle on life right now.
A mentor once told me - in a fight to the death the winner is not the one that threw the most punches, or even the best punches, it is not even about your technical ability.
In a fight to the death the last person standing is the one that wins. So, what is the challenge that you are facing right now? What is your Everest that you need to summit?
Here is my week, in a short summary (after reading this you will not feel so alone, I promise):
Some context to add behind this, we are currently upgrading our Remote Selling School experience, and I decided to re-record some of the videos that accompany a few of the modules.
Day One, Wednesday
I spent the day recording the first draft of the ‘Presentation Tools’ module in a new format that combines video over PowerPoint and Screencast tutorials. This is a huge leap for me from voice narration over PowerPoint – and a very steep learning curve.
Struggling with the new interface, I battled (I mean, really battled) to get the audio from the video to the EXACT pitch of the Screencast, so that they render together as one complete recording.
I had hoped to be further along in the process however by the end of Day One I said to myself, "Okay, a good day invested in learning. Tomorrow is a new day; I will carry on!".
Day Two, Thursday
I began the day feeling confident in my learnings from the day before, still enthused, and optimistic. I spend 6 hours out of my 10-hour day recording version two. I think it looks great! I export to our Learning Programme Manager for her input.
She calls me at around 7 pm to tell me the files are too big. Waaaay too big.
I do not know if it is the video over PowerPoint that is the issue, or if it is the Screencast that is too big.
Okay, I decide to chunk it down further, and to publish the Screencast in a low resolution. I cannot use what I have created, because I cannot pinpoint the file size issue through the e-learning authoring tool, and, with the additional chunking the flow now no longer works.
I want to cry or hit something. But I am too tired, so I do neither and go to bed.
Day Three, Friday
I just want to get this done, I am tired and annoyed, yet I knuckle down and power through it.
My Programme Learning Manager calls that night to tell me that my redone presentation seems rushed, and I sounded impatient and under pressure. Which of course I was, and it clearly came through in my voice...so, I need to do it again.
I thank her for the feedback and pour an adult beverage.
Day Four, Saturday
I walk into my office, look at my computer. I walk back out again and close the door.
Day Five, Sunday
Today I feel rested, and I am resolved to get this done by noon.
When coming into the section demonstrating what one looks like before and after adding a greenscreen, I turn to pull up my gorgeous Elgato greenscreen, in what should be an elegant and effortless exercise, which of course turns into a clumsy and inelegant face – forward dive into my green screen.
I have buckled the foot, bent the mechanism, and creased the beautiful fabric where my knee went into it. My back hurts, my knee hurts, and my ego is bruised.
I take a deep breath and I count to 10. I force a smile. I finish the module.
This is the life of a sales professional, a business owner or a creative. Sometimes tasks you expect to be easy are mentally, physically, and emotionally challenging in ways one cannot predict.
Sometimes the attainment of the vision is difficult, and it feels clumsy. You might even wonder if the challenges and problems are a sign that you are headed in the wrong direction.
At the end of your battle, who will be the last one standing? Because, if you persist and you are the one standing at the end, then that ultimately makes you the winner. Even if you may possibly not feel like one.
These are the moments that shape you because the attainment of your prize is not your greatest reward. Who you become in the process is the real reward. Once you overcome your battle, it shapes you into a person that is stronger, more resilient, and more confident than you ever were before…
This poem just speaks volumes to me right now…
Don't Quit by John Greenleaf Whittier
When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all up hill,
When the funds are low, and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is strange with its twists and turns
As every one of us sometimes learns
And many a failure comes about
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow—
You may succeed with another blow.
Success is failure turned inside out—
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell just how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far;
So, stick to the fight when you're hardest hit—
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.
This poem is in the public domain.
Keep on fighting the good fight, feel the resistance but return with persistence.
Hang in there, you got this, trust me!